Influenza is serious business. We respectively just call it, The Flu, around here.
It certainly laid me on my back and caused me to completely lose seven days of my life that I can never get back last week. Hours that went on without end as I stared at a ceiling above me and felt so horrible that not only could I not lift my head and for once I cared not about messages, email, television, or reading.
It’s the first time in my life I have laid in a room by myself for days to do nothing but sleep and think. I was forced to simply just be.
I guess because I knew Mother’s Day and my son’s wedding were approaching, my thoughts were consumed about my life as a Mom during this time of solitude.
When your kids are small and life is crazy, you feel as if those days go on forever but they don’t. It’s hard to accept sometimes the fact that those younger years have come and gone and you have a new season of life now with your older children.
I have many regrets as a Mom about decisions made in fear, anger that shouldn’t have been seen, letting time slip through my hands too easily, and words left unsaid. I cry now as I write because I wish there was a way I could get a second chance to relive the last few years and fix some of the mistakes I clearly made as a Mom.
But then I would probably undo the work God was doing that I was unaware of, in spite of me.
No, going back isn’t the answer. God has allowed my kids to grow up in His image to love and serve him. They are strong, loving, kind, well-rounded people. They are completely different from each other and in their own rite, they are each, very amazing human beings.
It was as if God had me in a position during my flu illness this week where I could not escape what He wanted me to process. An amazing thing happened….
I now have a renewed commitment to give my family all that I have each and every day and to give younger Moms hope and encouragement to do the same for their families. So I guess in a way, being sick truly helped me slow down and gain encouragement from the One who gives it best.
I hope the following list encourages you to truly enjoy Motherhood, Mom, no matter their age, and don’t look back. It’s a list I want to continue to live by no matter what:
- I must remember that no one will innocently trust me with all of their heart more than my kids.
- I must value that trust and never, ever take it for granted. I must keep my promises.
- I must start each day with renewal from Christ and keep His word hidden in my heart .
- I must never take for granted the gift of another day but take every advantage of the moments each day with my kids.
- I must remember to take care of myself so that I can take care of my family the very best I can.
- There will always be changes happening and I must not be sad to see them come but thankful they are possible.
- No matter how bad life seems, there is always a rainbow to be found.
This is my list. What would you add to it, Mom?